that dude Tyler, the Creator is a bit grimey.

That Dead Prez show in Lincoln was orgasmic to my ears.  Why can’t more good music roll thru OMA and LNK??

My eyes burn from tears of tequila.  Thank you, Jason Derulo after-party congregation.

Had a pretty good weekend…drinks, basketball, and good friends.  hope that carries into the next weekend, also.  :)

Woke up at 5am (didn’t need to).  Texted with THE girl because she hardly ever sleeps at night. Went back to sleep round 6am.  Had 1st dream where 2 of my close friends got drunk with me at a bar.  One of them got into a fight and got the boot.  The other drink himself into a stupor but lasted til bar close.  Somehow I lost him after I went to the bathroom, and was locked in the bar.  When i finally found a way out, I triggered the alarm.  Feeling loneliness…woke up at 7am.

Back to sleep, start a whole new dream.  With THE girl out to a movie.  We’re joking around and waiting in a line that seemed to have gone on for days. At some point we lock hands with each other on “accident”.  Feels right.  While we’re getting our tickets, she gets hers first and goes to save seats for us while i get food.  All kinds of chattering chaos around, ticket booth gives me the wrong movie ticket but I don’t notice until i get the theater doors and notice its not the movie, nor is it a movie but a play, and it’s not until the next day.  I pull my phone to call THE girl, but every time try, i’m pushed around by a crowd of people.  I then notice a text from a girl I met in South Padre years ago.  It’s a video of us sinning. I wake up.

Da fuck, right?!

tumblrbot asked: WHERE WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT ON YOUR PLANET?

Japan…but Mother Nature (damn, women) messed that up for me…plus I’m broke.

What do you do when the girl you want, only sees you as a friend, a close friend…but doesn’t know how to equate that fact to mean I’m right for her??

Tell her and possibly ruin a friendship; in turn, pushing her away from you and hating yourself for years…

or…

Continue as a friend and watch as guys treat her like shit again and again…letting each douche-bag she encounters and believes is “the one” continue to crush her heart…and each time she throws herself in front of the bus, I let it kill me to the point that I lose interest in and respect for her altogether.

I piss failure.  Holla.